I need cheering up 😕

I’m trying to stay strong, but it’s proving damn difficult. I’m hundreds of miles from home, in a new city, it’s my first day and I know literally NOBODY. I eat, I’m in pain, I don’t eat, I’m in pain, I don’t know what the fuck I’m supposed to do to stop it from happening anymore. The medication, although strong, a lot of the time is proving to be shite, my body is just now refusing to accept help from anything weaker than IV morphine and gas. I’m tired, I’m so, so tired, most of the time physically, but now also mentally and emotionally, I pray, but I’m starting to doubt it’s effectiveness, and then I pray some more because I’m ‘not supposed to think thoughts like that’. This isn’t how this was supposed to start, it wasn’t meant to be worse that’s just staying in London. These hospital stays and surgery mean that I’m now going to fall behind, the strong painkillers I’m going to have to continue to take will mean that concentrating and staying awake during lessons will be a myth, I’m going down a downward spiral with no visible way to stop or even slow down. But I still have to believe in God, even if that’s the furthest thing from my mind right now, I’m not the ‘conventional’ Christian, but surely that doesn’t mean God has a right to ignore my pleas. I can’t stop crying, I’m crying now as I write this, I’m a mess and it’s embarrassing. I feel so helpless and it sucks.

thesinwhisperer:

thedolo:

ghhhadaaamn

What models for fashion shows should look like

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koreanmodel:

Min Joonki by Maeng Minhwa for Dazed n Confused Korea May 2014

koreanmodel:

Min Joonki by Maeng Minhwa for Dazed n Confused Korea May 2014

homme—models:

Porsche Design Spring/Summer 2015

homme—models:

Porsche Design Spring/Summer 2015

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featherframe:

i hate the word ‘clean’ applied to food.  ‘clean eating’. it’s just another dickhead way to call poor people dirty when they don’t have the time/energy/money to cook and eat wild line-caught salmon and ethically farmed organic quinoa

Be careful who you vent to.

Realest shit I’ve heard all morning. (via itsthelesbiana)

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bidyke:

bisexualpiratequeen:

designedtoseduce:

zessinna-saris:

Dark green georgette fabric with the white and yellow design throughout the sari. It’s absolutely beautiful, and perfect for a night out or any event. Maybe even try it with a corset! A dull yellow, or silver corset, or black, or a corset like mine! There is no blouse.

$10  + shipping

Please read how to pay, the shipping information, and the disclaimers. :)

*Corset not included*

You are a goddess! Teach me.

oh wow

OMG a sari with a corset O.O

pregnantfitmom:

casualblessings:

May you have enough money to pay your bills this month with a little extra left over for a bit of fun.

This is one of the nicest things to wish for someone

thingsorganizedneatly:

Adam Voorhes knife laurel. Read how he did it here.

thingsorganizedneatly:

Adam Voorhes knife laurel. Read how he did it here.

koreanmodel:

Park Sungjin for D. Gnak by Kang D Fall 2014 collection

koreanmodel:

Park Sungjin for D. Gnak by Kang D Fall 2014 collection